Porn

Thanks to the joys of modern technology, porn is always just a button push away, whether on the computer, or ordered straight throughout the television.

Personally, I've never been big into porn. Yes I've watched it. Yes it can turn me on. However, I'd much rather ready an erotic story and get off that way. Perhaps it's because I'm a woman and not as visually stimulated as most men. Maybe it's because I'm an English major and just get off on the written word. Who knows.

While reinventing our sex lives, porn has definitely come up as a topic of conversation between Dragon and I.
He knows that due to my self-esteem issues, it's hard for me to watch him get aroused by younger, more attractive, thinner women. But, I also know that porn is a part of all men's existence, and I'm working hard to be a part of all aspects of Dragon's sexual existence.

To ease into the idea of enjoying porn together, Dragon recently shared a video with me that enjoyed from Burning Angel. It featured a kinda (and that's being generous) curvy girl with tattoos, lots of oral and some anal. The girl was totally obnoxious and kept playing with her pigtails and making big wide eyes. It was also POV, which I hate, because it gives me nothing to get off on. Don't get me wrong, I can totally recognize a woman's hotness, but women just don't get me off.

I saw what it was that Dragon liked about the video, acknowledged it, and the subject more or less dropped.

Then, last night, out of the blue, Dragon started perusing the list of on demand porn available through our satellite. He started proposing titles that I may be interested in watching. I did my best to be casual about it, and agreed that the amateur couple videos may be interesting. Next thing I knew, the video was downloading to the tv.We climbed into bed together and I braced myself as he queued up the movie.

The first girl that was featured was a curvy, tattooed girl with pierced nipples and a shaved pussy. All of Dragon's favorites. To top it all off, it turned out it was also POV. Fail.

Dragon tried hard to critique the video to help facilitate my comfort level, but I could feel how aroused he was. I did my best not to feel self-conscious, to not feel every spare pound I was carrying while watching Dragon's dream date, but it was a challenge.

I worked on distracting myself by playing with him, stroking his cock and giving him head. He was incredibly hard, and I tried to enjoy it while ignoring the fact that it was largely due to the porn.

Dragon began to play with me in return and it was easier to watch the porn and take it for what it was. When he began licking my clit and brought me to an amazing orgasm, the movie was totally forgotten.

As the movie moved on to the next couple, we were already having amazing sex, the movie completely forgotten. After we both came (me repeatedly) we lounged and tried to finish watching the movie. It was all POV and all terrible with the absence of even a hot girl for Dragon to drool over.

All in all? A waste of $4.99. If we play with porn again, we're definitely going to have to research our selection a little better beforehand.